The end of the year is coming in a month's time. Time really flies when you are enjoying yourself. This year is just like a dream. This is probably the first time I've felt this way.
This is the year whereby I begin on a journey as a student, again. It felt really wierd to go back to school when most of your peers are starting to step out into the society as young adults. Haha~ Talking about never growing old. Sometimes I wish I was living in Neverland, where people never need to grow up and face the various pressures from the society. Or going into an adventure as like in One Piece. How nice. Yea, studying is very pressurising, but it is impossible to avoid it. Look at me. I'd avoided studying and hence am reduced to this state, seeing people setting forth into the bright future and I, on the other hand, am one step behind. Come to think about it, Meng Choo had given me good advice. I am really an ambitious person. Planning is really important, and important decisions like choosing a field of specialisation should never be left to be decided by someone else other than yourself. Even though studying for accounting is really tedious and time-consuming, but at least I've enjoyed studying it. It would probably be a different story if I was still in Physiotherapy. Well, one thing that I'm really grateful about is that I have never regreted my decision in quitting the course.
And then there was one amazing thing. I would have never expected YC to contact me on his own. Haha~ we did not have a long chat, but I'm really glad that he was carrying on his life well. And the funniest thing is that he was so worried that the 'incident' was still bothering me and 'leaving a scar' in me, as what he had phased it. LOL. Come on man! I am not that weak okay!
I'm glad that I've become even closer to 2 of my best friends, Serene and HY, even though the three of us only worked together for a short period of time. HY only worked for 2 months as a temp. so she's already out of C Co. Now she is in Amercia on a 2 months trip *envy envy* and I'm missing her already on the first day after her departure. I wish she had updated her blog more often though. I love her pictures of the European buildings in the States. And we have Serene. Frankly speaking, I think Serene has a really high EQ. It is a pity that she has no desire to upgrade herself further because if she does, she'll definately be sitting at the top of the chart in no time. She is still in C Co and is trying to 'survive' the politics in the environment whereby there is a new management change. As for me, I've already quit. Don't ask me the reason. I'm glad that I'm outta there.
There are some deaths this year. My uncle had died somewhere this year which had thrown everything into chaos. This is where I say that money is the source of all trouble. The ugly side of my dad's relatives have all surfaced, which is kinda exceeding my expectation. I mean, they are that kind of people to suck up to rich people but this time they are really going to the extent that they plot against each others. It's really very sad to have all these things sunk into my mind, and my dad got hit the most cos' he lost all his siblings overnight even though he was not really interested in all those things. As for me, I don't really care. I am not close to them in the first place and they really give me 'the face' when I previously quit my course and started working. So my heart is dead already. I just felt pity for my uncle.
This is the point where I realised that certain friends caught up in all the chaos caused by my relatives are really friends to be kept for life. I'll never forget them ^_^* Thank you very much.
On the other hand, my ex-college Jesse's husband was crushed to death on the construction site during his work. It has been 2 months now and she is still in a daze. Myrna has been trying her best to cheer her up. I do not know what to do or say, so I just keep quiet. I thought I should call her up, but I don't know what to say to her. I guess I'll let Myrna do the job. I really hope that she'll be over with it. It is not healthy to be always in such a depressed state when she has 2 children who are still toddlers.
Then I have some friends who have health problems, but they are recovering. So thank god.
Let's talk about some unimportant things. I still find it amazing that I was so much into NEWS in the beginning of the year and then all of a sudden, I am into SS501. It hadn't even last for a year 8P I am really looking forward to go to SS501 Personas but I have no time, no money, and most importantly, they converse in Korean! Why should I spend money to go to a concert whereby I don't understand a word of what the members are saying? Hah! Have to think twice. But if they ever come to Singapore, I would like to catch a look at them, even though I probably won't be able to see them anyway due to a potentially huge crowd. Do you know that SS501 has an organised fanclub that worked closely with the band? Known as Triple S, it has a lot of division such as Triple S Phillippines, Triple S Singapore, Triple S Japan, Triple S China, etc. They have too many fans all over the Asia. It's really scary.
What else have I left out? Hmm~ Oh ya! New recent discovery - Angelia is into muscle man.
Final words to my dear friends:
- From Primary School -
Esther Wong
Look at you! You have become prettier! You have the potential to do great things! Don't let yourself down! And forget about those boys who break your heart! You deserve better.
- From Secondary School -
Serene Neo
I'm trying remember to return calls, but as usual, I didn't. Argh. I'm old already. I'm very sorry not to meet you up earlier to celebrate your birthday. I'll see you after my exams okay?
Angelia
Congratulations! You are finally a form teacher next year! Is the school mad to assign you to teach 7.5 classes? Haha~ Just joking! The school is not mad. It is pinning high hopes on you. Don't despair, don't lose hope. Just keep on going your path and things will work out. I'll send my little boy (if I even have one) to your school for English lessons cos' I fail at English! Haha~ And thanks for all the laughter and joy you brought me this year. I'm really grateful =)
Rhian Tan
Rhian! I'm finally into K-Pop! Be happy for me! Muahahahaha! Where are you now? Why have you disappeared without a trace? WWWaaahhh~~~~~~~~~~~~
Grily Chua
The quiet and sometimes sarcastic little girl who loves to bite on Angelia's tail. Blah. Keep your Yamapi fandom alive, otherwise poor Angie would be alone in her NEWS fandom XD
Pek Har
I'm really looking forward to an exciting career in Accounting. Do encourage your junior to keep the flame burning! Haha~ We'll meet up during Chirstmas!
- From Junior Collage -
Tan Hui Ying
BRING ME TO THE US NOW! Opps. I would like to go there one day, just the two of us. Then we can go hunt for places to draw. I have a relative staying in California so it's going to be really exciting. Please learn how to drive though XD
Oh yes. I will work on the draft. I really will! Believe ME!
Tan Meng Choo
The next Assistant Manager, when are you free to meet up huh?
Cecilia Chua
So long never meet up le. Please meet up soon.
Sally
It's ironic to say this but I think NEWS has brought us together. Do you think we would ever talk to each other if the NEWS fandom never happened? Eh. I wish I knew that you like Arashi earlier.
- Colleges -
Mabel
How are your kids doing? We haven't been in contact for some years already. I probably have to make a call to you after my exams.
Myrna
Sorry for not being able to meet you up in November. I'll arrange a time with you on December.
Jesse
Do look on the bright side.
- Others -
Yu Chang
Don't worry~ You'll get a girlfriend in no time. It is you who is choosy, not the girls okay!
- The rest of the cool guys -
Lone Wolf Ishida
Married life is full of constraints right? I told you so. Take things easy though lol.
Daniel
When are you coming to Singapore? I'll let you stay in my house, no problem =)
Dash
Helo! How's working life so far? Hey I just heard of someone else with the same name as yours. It's unfair right? Haha~
Mr. Dante
Which country are you in now? The last place I heard was in the US. If you are still somewhere there, can I introduce my friend to you?
Yuu
When are you going to change your hairstyle? GOSH you have that hairstyle for the longest time. Can't you just change it into something else????
Minnie
Haha gotta love your rebonded hair! Yuu should learn more from you wahahaha~
HaiZ~ I wanted to change my blog layout but I kind of stop at changing only the header. I am not changing the "Friends Only" banner because it've got some significance to it (only some people will know). I'm grateful for Angelia for introducing NEWS into my life and it is funny how the knowledge of NEWS changed the people around me. I became closer to some of my already close friends and we are even closer than ever now. I hate to throw NEWS completely out of my life, as to what I did to Tackey, cos' each of them represent the different stages of my life. As like what Angelia told me few nights before, my taste in men has changed. I think that is totally right. I have changed from liking the 'white horses' to the 'black horses', pretty evident as shown below.
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By the way, the meaning of 'white horses' and 'black horses'? 'White horses' refers to guys who are good-looking externally but introvert on the inside. 'Black horses' are guys who are not that good-looking on the outside but they have great personalities. Japanese guys overall are still so much better looking than Korean guys, and trust me, SS501 are the better-looking Koreans, besides Rain.
Cause of this change? I believe it is mainly due to Angelia's teachings. When we are into NEWS, she is the one who went researching on all NEWS informations, interviews and stuffs that lead to the insight of their personalities. I did not do all that when I was into Tackey and Jun. I was just admiring at their acting skills and just trying to finish their drama / movie productions. Maybe that's why those guys are so much good looking than the guys that I choose now? Now, besides looking at an idol's looks, I really dig into their interviews and stuffs and figure out their personalities. Otherwise, I would have liked Kyu Jong instead of Jung Min as of now. And one thing I realise when both Angie and I were into idolism - our idols comes in pairs. In NEWS, Angie likes Massu, and I liked Tegoshi. In SS501, I like Jung Min, and Angie prefers Hyung Jun. They are the Tom and Jerry in the group.
Anyway, enjoy the 16th version of Real Emotions - I Wonder... featuring Park Jung Min. My Microsoft software is unable to be used and so this header picture is created purely by Windows Photo Gallery using Brightness and Colour Adjustments (ahh~ am so proud of myself). The colour scheme is kept the same until further changes ;)